In case you haven't noticed, and you obviously have, I don't quite know what I'm doing yet. I haven't quite figured out the rules of this blog - what I will talk about, what I won't, what the focus is. I'd love for this to be a blog that is, still, focused on books and YA lit, but I know the problems I ran into last time and I'm wary of posting anything that could cause problems. I still don't know where the line is.
And I know that if this is going to become just another book blog, then what was the point of me giving up Ten Cent Notes (where I had a solid readership and had put years of effort into the blog) in the first place? I have to remind myself constantly that I started this new blog for a reason, a clean start, a fresh perspective. However, as much as I'd love to look at things from the writer's POV... nobody wants to hear that. Or if that's not true here's what is:
I don't feel comfortable having a writing blog, because I am not a writer except in the loosest definition of the word. I'm not okay with giving you writing advice because, really, why should you listen to me? Talking from the perspective of a writer often means talking about writing, and while I love talking writing with friends and family (because my mother is obligated to listen to my writing-related rants), I'm less enthusiastic about blogging about it because I'm pretty sure it's only interesting to me.
So, uh, I'm not quite sure what I'm doing. I'm thinking about blogging about TELEVISION TELEVISION TELEVISION because I love television, but even that's something that I feel like would only interest me. And I do feel like, honestly, that small foothold I had into the world of YA lit has dissipated now that I'm not running a book blog and only occasionally talking about books on the blog. That really sucks, because I love YA and I love talking to other bloggers and being part of that community and feeling like I have a reason to talk to authors, like I'm not breaking some invisible wall between me and them. (True, this wall may only be in my mind, but it's still there.) I miss that and I'm not yet used to not talking books every day and sharing my opinions with people and writing book discussion posts about things that are bugging me or things I wish would change.
I'm sure it's just the fact that starting a new blog and quitting another puts you in an in-between, transition-y stage, and it hasn't been that long, really, but right now I do feel like books are the only interesting thing I have to talk about and omg omg what am I doing?
That's the question I'm trying to answer. So things are still going to be a bit rough around here for a few weeks while I figure it out.
But I don't know.
I'll figure it out eventually. Hopefully soon. The unending ennui is killing me slowly.
Well i think you're a writer in the absolute sense of the word and I'd be interested in what you had to say on writing.
ReplyDeleteAlso this might be a good post to read right now for a different perspective http://jaclyndolamore.blogspot.com/2011/01/dear-querying-writers-use-common-sense.html
Hope you figure it out soon :)
Alexa
ReplyDeleteThank you! I read that post a few days back and am possibly still struggling with it. It seems obvious, but after closing the old blog down, etc, there are still some things I have to figure out.
I love the word ennui, the manuscript I just finished is rife with it. As far as what you end up blogging about... I'll read it whatever which-way. There's some part in Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott where she talks about how some people are interesting to you no matter what they get up to. She mentions her friend Pammy (I could have the name wrong) and how if Pammy asked her to go to the dump she'd go, because ultimately it's not what Pammy does but who Pammy is. Anyhoo, if you wrote about going to the dump, I'd read it. Hope that made a wee bit of sense.
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